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Lovely Girl's 17th Birthday!

well, yesterday work was fine and Evelyn visited with her boy. (: it was fun actually. working with IDIOT and this shows that we fought all the waaayyy.. Idiot is still idiot. always bully me. IDIOT. but, the place of joy can always cast my troubles away. (: but, 为什么是他，而不是你？Idiot always make me furious lah. duhh! however, Joy is all i found there. (:

hmm.. Today's Evelyn's 17th Birthday. (: of course, we're celebrating! (: and, truely hope that she'll love the little gift from us! (: wheeeee~

and.. i pray that Jesus can bless me FINANCIALLY! im kind of broke! ):

anyway,

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY, EVELYN TAN YU JUN!
you're 17! (: and soon, you'll be 18, then 19 then 20, then 60. hahah! (: im sure by then, we'll be enjoying our life with high teas and be a high class "taiTai"! (: and of course, we'll still be friends forever. no matter what happends, i'll still be there, That's what friends are for! (: you're superb LOVED by me. *and your boy of course! (: stay pretty, beautiful princess (:

我会坚强。。

我不哭。因为我是个大女孩了。
我告诉我自己，与其让自己不舒服，不如早点做个了断。

虽然我知道，我会是自己孤独的度过至一切。。 可是我会坚强。

加油了，YunQi..

(: dun worry, i'm still the strongest, the bravest.
no worries, i'll be alright!

nothing had actually happened, but thoughts just filled me. i guess its the stupid PMS that resulted me. (: im fine, im truely fine. maybe after my menses, i'll be alright! and, im really good. (:






我不再哭了。。　(:

Premenstrual Syndrome. (PMS)

Most women with premenstrual syndrome experience only a few of the problems. The most common symptoms are:

Weight gain from premenstrual water retention
Abdominal bloating
Breast tenderness
Stress or anxiety
Depression
Crying spells
Mood swings, irritability or anger
Appetite changes and food cravings
Trouble falling asleep (insomnia)
Joint or muscle pain
Headache
Fatigue (medical)
Acne
Swelling of Breasts
Trouble concentrating
Social withdrawal
Body temperature increase

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well, can see, im having PMS, and it become worst in the night especially. ):

went out with Mui to Sing Post for something and we almost finishing! (: Praise Lord. but when its almost done, i felt muscleache around my waist. ): it was terrible actually. hmm.. oh yah, results were out. i didn't score well.. ):

RealEstateBusiness : D+
FacilitiesOperation/M: C
EMaths1 : A
EffectiveCom: B
Auto Cads: B+
WriteOral: C
APel: Passed
GPA: 2.75 *sad*

Overall Passed.

but i deserved this lah. ha. i only study for the subject one day before the paper. lol. was glad that my Auto Cads can get B+ (: but disappointed for my writeoral. my presentation got A leh! then overall so bad. ):

never mind, no SUB paper for me! (:

oh yah, today work wasn't very good, due to my PMS`ing. LOL. and that idiot PMS`ing too. and the cramp came suddenly when we're doing closing. ): super painful. and i hate PMS. ):

My Wonderful Aunt, Ah Yi! ((:

well, Praise Lord, Grandma discharged today. (: and that's why i went there to stay overnight yesterday.

Thank Lord, for my wonderful Aunt. (: before i fall asleep last night, i was talking to Aunt. i told her, how i despise my Brother, what happened last year, the incident when i ran out of the house in the middle of the night, i told her how He treat me treat Dad at home, how She treat US differently. well, im actually blessed with wonderful Aunt. we had great talk until 12 plus. (:

Luckily ive got her, ive got my friends, if not, i would have sucided. (: honestly, i did gave a thought to that. sometimes, i really feel tired and sick of everything. Everytime, they scold me, they pick on me, i really feel helpless. i wouldn't want to argue back, cuz i want peace. but, no worries people, im not silly. (:

when i told her that incident where i ran away, she said something, that i was SUPERBLY touched. she said, "Next time, come here, no matter how late, we'll bring you in, they might not want you, but i do. " OMG, with her around, how would i bare to leave? (:

She understands, she REALLY understands! (: i told her, im fine, cuz ive got a goal, 10 years later, i'll get married and off i go. (: but, i know, if my 2nd brother married an evil wife, and might leave her and dad, i'll definitely help.

and i told her, people will only start to treasure when you lose it. perhaps, when i married, she'll then start to treasure me. however, its not too late actually. (: well, let's juz wait for that day. (:

yesterday, the first thing that my grandma said when i visit her in the hospital was my 2nd brother's name. i pointed to my cousin, and asked her who he is, and she said, "JunHua, Ah Hua" *my 2nd brother's name. i felt shameful, really i felt awful. no matter what, he's my brother, and grandma still remember him. BUT WHERE WERE HE?

well, i believe, Life is like a mirror, how you treat others, it will reflect it on you. so, im not angry, cuz i know, he'll have his lesson learnt.

im blessed with wonderful, perfect Aunt, with lovingly Grandpa, with Awesome Friends. (: its okay for me not having good Home, but ive got them, its enough. (:

iHATEyou *pardon me with my sensored languages.

seriously and honestly, i despise you. You're forever finding grudges with me. or perhaps, you think you're the King. but want to let you know, my God is the King, and you're just a piece of useless SHIT.

think dude, you claimed that you're so fillial, come on, freak, *talk to my ass*. ever since granny admitted to the hospital and ever since she almost leave us, WHERE WERE YOU? stuffing your head inside the toilet bowl looking for shit? you're so fillial, while im a retarded, schoolling, working, and visiting granny? even the not close relatives, even 2nd uncle went to the hospital. WHERE WERE YOU? i bet, granny won't remember having you as her grandson. i bet she've forgotten you.

You claimed that you're busy with your work. but WTH, you spent your time infront of the computer the whole day, like, WOW, you're SOOOOO hardworking eh? sorry, i seriously despise you.

you're 22 and honestly speaking you have no brain. or perhaps, 有头没脑，有脑生草。i know you might not want a happy family, peaceful family, but please, i WANT. LEARN HOW TO SPEAK PROPERLY! talk is not = to SHOUT. dumb ass. you shout, you're driving everyone's limit. you're making everyone frustrated. Idiot, you claim yourself 22 years old?

well, 2 years old you mean? but oh man, 2 years old baby are adorable, but you're juz a piece of smelly shit. don't ORDER me to work, im not your maid, im not your whoever freako. and i still dun understand, why SHE is bias towards you. the more you shout at me, the more i WON'T do anything.

you claimed that you understand me soooooooooo much. *oh man, like SHIT lah.* understand, *talk to my ass again, you shit.* whenever i heard this, "no body understand you like i do" i feel like puke`ing! yah, you understand my SHIT.

and i finally understand, why NO GIRLS is willing to go near you. You deserved this. and i truely believe, you have unbalance homones. you can't talk properly, each and everytime i heard you shouting. even talking to Papa.

sorry, i despise you.
sorry, iHATEyou.

Dear Lord, please shower him with wisdom, oh, maybe showering isn't enough for him. please Lord, please POUR him with wisdom, POUR him with maturity, POUR him with proper-speaking-attitude. please please cast his childishness away, please cast his cannot-stand-attitude away. Lord, please make him 开窍。。In JESUS almighty name, AMEN.

Tiring Day.

went out with Astro and XiaoBai for SHOPPING! wheeeeeee~ but i ended up kenna bully by stupid astro. Kaos. we went Suntec, for both the Food Fair and Games Fair. well, not bad though (: went Marina Sq shop shop and back to suntec. whaaha! Not bad, we still can slack for 4 - 5 hours. HAHa.

went to the Place of Joy after tt. talk and talk to Siti about so many things and she never fail to make me gain my confidence for myself (: with her around, i know im not so bad. (: wheeeee~ thankYou, Lovely girl! (:

well, Joy seems far from me. ): sometimes, i must really understand those things. well, but who cares anyway? ): i seriously need Joy. i need Fun. i need Laughter. ): i seems to lose everyone. ): sigh..

Dear Lord, please bring Joy to me again. ): Lord, please make me feel You tomorrow. I seriously need to feel Your Love. ): In Jesus almighty Name, Amen!

Praise Lord!

Grandma discharged today! Praise Lord, Praise Jesus! AMEN! Not only she came back to life, but she's recovering tremendously! Thank God, that my prayers were heard each and everytime. (:

i can't be bothered to blog yesterday because im hooked by doing something! (: and Praise Lord, ive completed! wheeee~ another thing to go. haha. this current one is more tough, more challenging! but i know, with Jesus around, whom shall i fear!? AMEN! (: i'll complete it on time and make it a wonderful one! Amen! wahaha!

Working yesterday was fine. (: facing my laptop the whole hour and *ahem, nvr really do my part yesterday. HAHA. sorry lah, Idiot.

i wanna go kbox! wheeeee. ive been waiting for dunno how long alr. and... who's willing to go together? waha! (:

Daddy, with You around, i rest. You'll complete all my job, and i will rest. (: i know, no matter how difficult it is, but with You around, i know i can complete it with wonderful works. (: Lord, I thank You, for hearing my prayers, for showing mercy to Granny. and Lord, there's one more thing in me. but i know, i shan't worry. (: wheeeee~ You sooo love me. In Jesus Name, Amen.

Thats What Friends Are For

And I never thought Id feel this way
And as far as Im concerned
Im glad I got the chance to say
That I do believe I love you

And if I should ever go away
Well, then close your eyes and try
To feel the way we do today
And then if you can remember

Keep smilin', keep shinin'
Knowin you can always count on me, for sure
Thats what friends are for
For good times and bad times
Ill be on your side forever more
Thats what friends are for

Well, you came and opened me,
And now theres so much more I see
And so, by the way, I thank you
Oh and then, for the times when we're apart
Well, then close your eyes and love
With the words thats comin from my heart
And then if you can remember,

Oh, keep smilin', keep shinin'
Knowin you can always count on me, for sure
Thats what friends are for
In good times, in bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
Thats what friends are for

EastCoastPark

the trip to EastCoastPark was actually cancelled. but we last min decided to carry on. therefore, Astro, YuRen and I went there for cycling! wheeeee~

i shall let the pictures do the talking! (: wheeeeeeeeeeeee~

we went pool after that.

took some pictures, but its not with me.

wahah! (:

Yuren and i. we do look like big sister and little brother! lol! wahaha
okay, trying to be crazy.
US!
Astro and I.
WAHAH!

US again (: This two. i swear they took this themselves one.
HE, keep on look into his mirror! lol! and tidying up his hair. LOL!

okay, yuren trying to be stupid!

ME!

SOME RANDOM PICS!

Me with my surprised cake at NZN

two Jokers and I

AGAIn

My classmate, Badd and I

Friends, are my reasons of JOY

Im blessed with wonderful people in my life.

well, it'll be a long post. ThankYou, my lovely hunks and babes. its a super nice 18th birthday. with laughter with smiles.

FooChow was LOL! they deco`ed me and made me stupid. LOL. but, thankYou, these Lovely Girls. HA.

yesterday, i met Evelyn, MinMin, JunPei, Crystal, YuRen, Jordan, SengYong and JianCong at Marina Bay MRT station. although it was very wahaha! but its super duper nice! i was the LIMELIGHT at the MRT station eh! haha. they forced me to wear a tiara and carry a worn*did i spelled correctly?* all the way to MarinaSouth for steamboat. waha.

and..... it was a nice one. we played bowl after dinner, and i lost both the matches. HA. okay okay, im lousy lah. LOL.

went Evelyn's house to sleepover. chat until 0330 and went to sleep. (: wheeee~

ThankYou,

Evelyn

MinMin

Jasmine

Astro

JianCong

YiXun

Crystal

JunPei

SengYong

YuRen

Alex

JiaWei

Valerie

Jordan

Christine

For Everything!

and, Those Warm Wishes, from Everyone. (: be it by sms`ing, msn`ing or Friendster Comments. (:

Lastly, HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY, MAKY!

*waiting for crystal to send me pics (:

Shall end this post NICELY with this video, done by my lovely hunks and babes!

im really touched. ThankYou.

Dear Lord, i Praise You, for bringing me wonderful people! Although i don't have good relationships at home, im Glad that i've my friends, they're the only people who make my world goes round. (: and Lord, i hope You heard my Birthday Prayers. i know im superbbbly blessed! In Jesus Almighty name, AMEN!

*my parents still insisted that ive got a boyfriend. -.-! oh man.

Sigh..

i think, i won't want to reach home earlier than 2230 anymore. today, i stayed at home, and nvr go anywhere at night. as its a saturday, i did house chores. i vacummed the floor. well, efford at home will nvr pay off. as usual, he and she, nag and nag non stop at me. from the aircon, to the washing of dishes. its really F* up if they're like tt everyday. sigh.

childish people will forever be childish, bias people will forever be bias. she nvr think, who the hell rush home, juz to help her hold her groceries? and let go the chance of hanging out with friends? and when i told her my friends going to celebrate my birthday for me. and guess wad? she start to nag again. sometimes, i really wish to turn off my ear and juz do whatever i like.

when they nag, they won't think, will anything accumilate inside me. sigh.. they, themselves can argue with my dad, that the people who thought of sucide is not by a one time accident. is by accumilating. sighh.. aren't they afraid?

i earn extra for my own use, and they also complain. i really dunno wad to do. they're seriously driving me crazy.